My life is full of empty promises right now. How's yours?

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Ok, so I've started my Guided Lead Teaching in Literacy and Math this Monday. So far so good. No MAJOR complains, but they are on the noisy annoying side most of the time. Also, I'm gonna have to crank out some major work during my train ride home to E.L. I'm going home on Friday (actually leaving early) to go visit friends in E.L. Going to be fun hanging out with friends and dballs for Halloween. I'm going to be Gothic Lolita again. My costume wasn't quite finished last year and also, I only went to one lousy party. No one saw me. It's cool. ;)

Anyway, updates on that afterwards. :)

I've been busy, busy, busy, busy, fr the past two weeks. So busy that I have neglected working out for a few days.... So out of character for me! Anyway, I am like a big blob of lard right now. Pretty gross. So I stayed over my sis's place on Friday and then this morning, she drove me back to my apt so that I could go to work at 9:45. Work went well today. Nothing crazy happened. I like being a receptionist. keke. I won't be going to work for the next two weeks though. Next week, I'm going home for Halloween weekend to party it up with dballs and friends at State. Then the Saturday after that, I have to go on some class thing. Ugh. Anyway, tmr is going to me "ME" day. I get to chill and do whatever and workout. BUT I also have to prep for teaching.....Oh the agony. **sigh**

I am the BIGGEST procrastinator in the world. If you cannot tell, I am super duper stressed. I've been this way for the last two weeks and I will be this way for the coming weeks as well. I've been lesson planning, lesson planning, lesson planning, and lesson planning lately. It blows big balls. I'm actually one hour away from my deadline and I'm sitting here, facebooking and blogging. GREAT use of time in my opinion.

But besides the stress, things have been looking up with d-balls. I'm going to East Lansing next weekend for Halloween! Hopefully it will be loads of fantastical fun. :D

Oh yea, I didn't work out for like 3 days in a row so I'm feeling kind of depressed about myself. I need to get back on track today! Damn lesson plans! Damn school! It's taking a toll on my health.  T_T

treating myself to a piece of Hai-Chew after a long days work

Today was my first day at the Spa. It was overall pretty fun. I enjoy answering the phone and greeting the customers. The hair stylist, Dezel, is pretty cool too. I'm thinking about getting a facial or massage from one of the girls there. Hopefully, they'll give me a good deal. Oh yea, I also managed to bump my head on the corner of a shelf HARD. Great Job on my part, but I think the receptionist desk is way too cluttered and there's too little space to move around.....

On a side note, I'm more depressed than ever. This week, I've just been really down. I feel like dirt. Or worse. I've been like a zombie. Unresponsive and Emotionless. I also saw something that really made me break down. But whatevs.

I turned in my project 4 minutes before it was due. Now I'm working on another one that is due in a few hours. I'm horrible. I'm having a horrible week. I've been down a lot. Something has been bothering me. Something he said. I don't know what to do. I'm just hurting inside, but I can't/don't want to show it.

I've been pretty down, stressed, tired, overall blah lately. Today started out horribly. Woke up and noticed that my roomie wasn't awake yet, so before I went out I knocked on her door and she just ignored me. So I was pretty worried the whole day at school. Turns out she had/has a fever and was out of it. At school, I had to take the 4th graders up to the science room for math. They were so annoying, no even funny. They're unmotivated, doesn't follow directions, whiny, and just plain annoying sometimes. I mentioned their behavior to my CT and she made them apologize to me. I could tell that most of their apologies weren't sincere so I just said "ok". We also got a new student in today. He's not exactly "new", but is new to our class. He is special ed and has someone with him the whole time. I hope it stays that way. When his helper was not there for a few minutes, he grabbed my arm and also tried to open my jacket. Then when he was by the bathroom, he pushed me on my boob and also slapped by butt. I told him that's inappropriate and he said "ok". I hope it's not going to be a problem later on. If it is, I feel really uncomfortable with him in the class. I'm also way behind in homework, projects, whatever. I'm also sort of unhappy about d-balls right now. I don't want to be that annoying girlfriend, but I want to be open. I'm just trying to block out all emotions right now. I need to focus on work, but it's hard. I've been sleeping horribly too. I want to go away. To Japan or someplace by myself.

I downloaded Christina Aguilera's Stripped album today. I love this album. It's my favorite of hers (although, all of them are pretty damn good). I love the lyrics in her songs. It goes well with my recent feelings and emotions. I just feel under appreciated, but I don't like admitting it. Feels like I depend on other people's attention, but I don't want to rely on anyone/anything. This is my dilemma. As Koreans would call it, it's my "complex".

I guess I'm more sensitive than I thought... Why me.....
Seems like people always want what they can't have and then when they have it, they don't want it anymore.... I always end up being that thing that people don't want anymore